it was may the 27th, when i attended an event which turned out as a disaster. i do not wanna spill my guts in the blog as i dont want to publicise wat happened to me all over friendster. what i can say is, it was unexpected, uncompromising and devastating.... i till this moment dont know what the hell caused the fiasco, the quarrel and the miscommunication between people who i knew in secondary school. i dont know wtf caused it as for what i know i din do anything to cause what happened. now the reason i am writing this blog is because some of my friends, my brothers, and my girlfriend was affected because of it and i dont know how to approach them anymore as they do not wish to speak me. i understand how they feel and i understand thier anger towards me, but i hope they understand that if there was anything that i could do, i would have done it. its difficult for me to face them anymore, the physical injury caused was bearable, but the mental and emotional torture that i am getting when i think of what happened is really killing me... at the end of the day, i just hope they will forgive me if i had said or did anything wrong. i shouldnt have gone in the first place, that was the biggest mistake i made, i had a hunch that it was a bad idea to go, but now theres no point in regretting what happened. well its a wake up call for me to re-evaluate my friends from my PAST.... never expected them to rage on me, as i din do anything wrong. life is fucked up at the moment. please do not ask me what happened after reading this blog. this blog is just intended to those who know what happened. sorry.. thats all i can say..
